On Friendship and Friends

6 August 2008

It is much the case when one is only saved by their friends. It is not their family, their acquaintances, their relatives, their own siblings, but rather the very persons who carry no blood relation to you - your friends, who actually save you. It's not a surprise for if we choose to explain why friendship is above all other relationships - the most pure and most benefiting of all. A friend, unlike a family, is not forced upon you. And you're not forced upon them either. You chose. And because it's your choice you know you're not doomed.

Being saved is not necessarily a life-threat resolving matter. It could be a moment when you needed support the most. It could be times when you knew without your friends' support you would drawn. Literally drawn into a sea of sorrow and sadness. But the fact that you know someone is there for you; when you're at this decisive moment and have all the questions in the world - you know having an answer is not as important as seeking it with their help.

After my birthday, I have been through several mind changes. I have started a massive reconsideration whom i should call friends. Because when you are forgotten at the very moment when everyone should remember you - you know you've failed at something. It might not be something you did, or even karma, but rather you're ability to give too much; it could turn into a curse! Being too kind and too good is a doom, and like they said in jadis; two are bound to insanity: too evil and too good people. Moderate evil and good will let you survive. But being too much of both is just ... too much. Unless you find someone who appreciates that, and i certainly hope i do have that someone, you're really doomed.

So i've never had a book wish list before. But now i do! It contains only three academic books, actually, but who knows, someone might be quite kind enough to get them for me ;P

Land of Respect and Discipline

30 August 2009

I would like to welcome you all to the land of respect. Where mutual understanding and caring is found. Where academic excellence is a daily concern and where traffic flow is a matter of discipline. I would like to take a moment and praise the street walkers for their friendly attitude and smiles, their own discipline even on the sidewalk, their respect to the circulation rules and regulations, and for their manners on buses and metros.

I send you my warmest regards from a place of opportunities. Chances are you're probably more gifted than you think you are and it proves you right. Where small things like recycling, green living, special needs, and care for the planet actually mean something and affect your daily life. From a healthy environment, air, parks, campuses, squares, and streets. Where girls are hot and it's a norm. Where you can find all sort of food, services, wear, just two clicks (or streets!) away.

I would like to welcome you all from Canada.

Reminiscence

2 April 2009

I'm surrounded by children. Some people like dealing with children. I say this is good when they are physically of that nature. But dealing with a 20 years old child is a bit different. They just want you to breastfeed them. I'm not their teacher. We are all given tasks in this life. I am not supposed to supervise their own and mine in the same time. People are incapable of understanding the every nature team work. They plunge themselves in false promises and hopes and end up regretting it. And when they do, they don't even learn from it. They keep doing the same stupidity over and over till you grab your gun and shoot them down.

I believe that people show true nature when they are either flattered or cussed. Today I was flattered a lot by my professor. I was calm. I smiled here and then but it didn't take all over me. Nobody hates to be flattered but despite the fact that it's a good sensation, it shouldn't get the worst out of you - because at that moment, at that very precise moment; people know. People know whether you're fake or not.

Nature of Divine Worshiping

25 March 2009

It's as simple as this: do we live by the divine rules simply because we respect them - or because we fear the consequences of disobedience? I am sure, like me, we all have "religious fanatics" friends or mates who believe it's their sole reason for existence is to guide other people into the "right path". Even though I do not have a problem "following a right path", I often question the intentions and/or the backgrounds of those who preach in that effect.

I found it rather strange that most people would always try and win this specific argument by stating "don't you fear God? do you not have the least dread of what will happen to you?" As if the only way for us to actually abide by the rules is to fear its consequences. I hate it. I personally believe that punishment should not be the motivation, but respect, love, and even enchantment should be. I do not pray because i fear that i will rotten in hell and/or i will be the fuel of the lowest-level of an imaginary-fire, no, i pray because i believe this is a way to thank my creator for the gift of life and the gift of sanity (and many more!).

Hopefully by now, if you are one of those fanatics you'd be like: "HERETIC!!" and/or "BURNN!!!". I think God-Man relation is like Father-Son, if it's built on fear it will end very soon and could prolly never be mended ever again. But if it was based on respect it will last forever. It's like love, if it's from the heart AND the mind it will last forever. If it's only from the heart, it might just be temporary or uncertain. It's mainly because it takes a lot of effort to convince the mind than to convince the heart. So if your mind is in love, you're down baby!

I believe in Quanta Quran. That's just a term i invented to express the science(or facts!) of how many times things were said in the quran. Or the order of how they were said. Or the style and form of how they were said. And I am sure, if we counted how many times God promised Man paradise it should overpass that of God threatning him the bounds of Hell.

God is love, not fear - that's how it should be.

Ramblings on the Status Quo

28 February 2009

It has been made very obvious, through the course of History and Mankind, that for one to achieve their sole goal for survival, a set of evolutionary and contemporary rules has to be established beforehand. Without rules, we would find ourselves mangled up in a notorious chaotic existence that differs us not from the very persons we call tyrants. And throughout my understanding of the Divine Will, I believe that a person is free only if they don't get to set rules for others to obey. One cannot, I dare say, claim freedom when they live to tie other people's necks to a rope that's strong enough to claim their lives.

We live in a society - should we call it so - of undefined goals. Our great, and the only, reason to live is for survival. We cannot claim higher reputation for our roots are starting to rot. We cannot support freedom for our hands, our very hands, are cuffed with ignorance. For ignorance is much lethal than stupidity because stupidity is a status of mental capibilities - it might not be mended. But choosing to be ignorant is not just stupid - but also killing.

Ignorance is not just unable to read for the lack of resources or will. Ignorance is not wanting to know more about the very own business of yourself. It's not wanting to develop. It's choosing not to progress willingly. This kind of attitude kills the soul and dims the spirit. If we are only tough how to develop our own self - we'd be of much high level now. If we are to classify Ignorance I would personally follow PBUH's saying. There are four types of people - three of 'em I consider them ignorant.

1. Those who don't know that they don't know (so guide them!)
2. Those who don't know that they know (so enlighten them!)
3. Those who know that they don't know (so teach them!)

and the forth kind
4. Those who know that they know (so follow them!).

We need to be the forth type. We need to know what we are talking about. We need to get a clue. Everyday people around the country complain about the incompetent abilities of the government, and I am not a apologist for the government, but I hate hypocrite who never do their duties and complain all the time. I hate whiners. I made that very clear in my previous post. People who work in a governmental office giving all the hardtime possible for those who deal with him at day, and at night they sit on a coffee shop and start complaining how the government should be more organized and how people are turning into bribed, unethical, unwilling, incompetent souls!

This is pure hypocrisy and this leads us nowhere. The empty half of the glass is that I don't think our society could be mended while I am still alive, i.e., it would take it more than hundred years to be fixed. The problem is not just the class of youth or the poor - no, the problem arises from the very basic foundations of the moral society of our dear country: the family and the school.

Let there be hope - be it understood that I am not penning any mystery.

Glass Half Empty

20 February 2009

Don't you just hate people who keep complaining all the time? Whiner off! People who keep looking at life as if it's a big negative test. That you are entitled to fail more than you succeed. To fall more than you stand up. To kill and finally be killed. Idiots. People who suffer constant, and i mean CONSTANT, emotional breakdown. Who live a black life and are miserable all the time. To the extent that they stopped hoping or even trying to change what they are. They are just too used to being miserable.

What i really hate the most about those people is their trial to write, say, and act it EVERY possible way and place. The talk about it in classes, in breaks, in hangouts, they blog about it, they even mention it when they're celebrating! A friend of mine once said that those who pretend they are happy for something they are not - are idiots. And I agree.

You don't need money to change. You don't need new friends or new family. You don't even need love! The only thing you need is - yeah exactly - yourself! You need to start thinking about what you are becoming into. Is it a three legged monster? Is it an airhead who lacs the sense of judgement? A spineless creature of no-decision and of no-character? Are you turning gay? You have to honestly (and we often are honest with ourselves) rererererere-evaluate yourself every now and then. Only then you will be able to determine what's wrong. And that's not just it. Don't just say "dude, I smoke too much, that's a killing, i know it sucks". No, act upon the given negatives and START a self-development program to kill and/or enhance things in yourself.

And to cope well with such program do not just work on the negative things in you. Work on the positive ones too. Learn guitar. If you think you don't have any positive aspects, try and ask someone who cares about you about it. You often neglect the good things you can do because you are surrounded by either too much lameness or by too much distraction.

So to all the whiners out there - to all the people who think the glass is half empty - START FILLING THE EMPTY HALF!

Setting Records Straight!

16 February 2009

Sometimes when you give someone too much attention in your life by loving them, surprising them, assuming they care as much as you do and not preparing yourself for an ultimate moment when all of this is going to perish, you end up really hurt. It leaves a big gap in your heart and soul. It makes your next experience with people cautious like a kitty alerting all of its body waiting for someone to take a move that's threatening to its life. It would scratch. It makes you more aggressive and of less expectations from people.

And now, some people have several solutions to this. Some keep the pain inside and keep telling everyone how it hurts ALL the time. They never move on. Some would starting building walls around them and it becomes really hard to even glimpse a light of hope. Others pretend it's all good and that life is anchain of events some are good and some are bad. Those people end up in bed at night crying their eyes out. And finally others would simply try and make out for it by repeating the whole scenario all over again but this time trying to avoid what went wrong. This is what I am like.

I think that if I am to befriend with anyone, it's essentially a matter of friendship that would built up (if any!) later on to form whatever you want to label it. And even though right now I am not looking for such I can say that it's always a possibility. Right now, I am doing the same thing I did three years ago. I made myself a best friend. She's prolly the only girl I trust these days. But to avoid what happened before, this time I'm all for being there for her as much as she's there for me. Labeling and calling relationships at this very moment is pointless if not a waste of time. I had to make this very clear to certain people, because she, as far as i'm concerned, knows what I am talking about.

If anything, there's a gap that has to be filled in everyone - it just depends on how big it is.